avelenovsky

I'm already bored with it. I much prefer flickr.
www.flickr.com/photos/avelenov…

It's almost amusing to me how abruptly things change in my life. I'll be carelessly floating about in my comfort zone and BAM. Knocked right back out. I can't decide if Mike breaking up with me is more of a positive or not. He is right in that things really aren't going to change and it's wonderful. I can't help but feel a loss however. I can't put my finger on what it is. Earlier today the emotional blow of it completely got the best of me and I was being silly with how upset I let myself get.
It's like having the security blanket ripped away from me is giving it to him. I'd rather have it that way. I can cope being cold for a little bit.
Our friendship is just... weird. I can't put it any other way. Yet the idea of it doesn't bother me. I may be a bit distraught right now, but bah.
His whole thing with dating and friend status has given me a whole new perspective on the concept of it... possibly anyway. Like I said, it's difficult to determine if this is going to have a positive outcome now, even though I damn well know it's all going to be perfectly fine if not better on his part. So I guess I do know. I need to get out of the habit of stating I don't know when I do again. >.<

I'm more than likely going to write some literary stuff later. After I finish all these government articles. Stupid Marty.

<sub>I went sledding for the first time in years yesteday. We actually had a decent snow. It was frightening. haha. Today is our second day off school. It's doubtful, but if we got three days off it would make my life.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind changed my life. I still can't form words about it. It's just that phenomenal.
I get my lens back in a week. ntil then I'm working with Polaroids and film.

Talk to me watchers! I'm sorry I haven't responded to anything. My laptop is currently getting fixed so I'm stuck with this piece of shit.</sub>

<sub>And it all commences with a fifteen year old girl, a love for her camera, and an uncontrollable desire to show the world what she's made of.

A love for men with raspy voices (and whiny voices alike), spontaneity, and the simply not simplistic.

Welcome to my world, my mind, and everyone involved.

I'm determined to get my name out there. I will never be satisfied.
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** Update on 2/23**
My cat broke my lense... It's a long story. I don't know how long it will be until it's repaired. Angstangstangst.</sub>